Drained

To be ‘thin’ and to be ‘fit’ are two different things, and they don’t necessarily go together. ‘Thin’ is all about meeting unrealistic societal expectations, and it doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re healthy. Fitness is about striving for your body’s maximum potential. Become fit, and you become healthy. Yes, you aim to get thin and find fitness along the way. But isn’t it far more rewarding to aim to be fit, to build your muscles, your speed, and your endurance, and maybe lose some body fat without even thinking about it, simply because you don’t need it anymore?

That wasn’t really going anywhere. Just a random thought. I think it’s inspired by my lack of weight loss even though my fitness is heading forwards in leaps and bounds. Trying to get some optimism into the mix here.

I’m feeling exhausted right now. Mind and body. I went to Bikram yoga on Thursday, and although it was exhilarating at the time, I wasn’t in the best of shape on Friday morning. Saturday, I knew I was in trouble in the first kilometre of my long run. I kept at it, shuffling away in a dismal state of mind. Zombies kept me somewhat distracted, but it really hurt when I hit the turnaround point and faced down the last 10 km. Took two short walking breaks in the last 2 or 3 kms. But I made it home. Barely.

Today I went to Bikram again. Legs were still stiff from the run yesterday, and I have this deep down fatigue, right down to my bones. The class wasn’t easy, but I felt better when I got out. Previous experience tells me that I’m not going to be feeling so flash tomorrow morning.

A bit of news… I’ve gone and signed up for a half marathon the week after next. God knows what I was thinking. I probably wasn’t thinking. I guess I’d better start tapering. And, I’d probably better cool down with the hot yoga for a couple of days before the race.